Im just sad

So today is rainy and dreary.
About a month ago my oldest son came to me
we talked about the troubles he was having
at school. He has struggled for many years
now at school. He has been bullied....picked
on....treated like crap.
He was behind in every class he could be behind
in. He had been sleeping his way through school.
He is 18 and really I as a mother cannot
do a whole lot. Yes I could try talking
to the school..but honestly this has never
worked before. Teachers were giving
him a hard time. He was at his breaking
point. He said mom I dont know what to do...
I feel like im going to break. So him and
I talked. I tried calling his guidance counselor
at school but she wasnt in. this was on a thursday.
well on Friday I got a call from one of the other
counselors. She said that a teacher had come in
and was worried about Tyler. I told her I too was worried.
that he seemed to be falling into a deep deep deep
depression. I told her the things Tyler and I had
talked about. She suggested since there was no
school on monday that on Tuesday I not send
Tyler to school but call and make an appointment
with his counselor. So that I did. She gave Tyler
his options. One was to go to school every other
day attend Choir and shop and then work on credit
recovery the rest of the time. Two he could
sign up for what I call "loser school" it is
where they send the trouble kids when they dont
want to deal with them anymore. Then the last option
was withdraw and work on GED on Tuesday and thursday night
so she told him go home think it over. Then call her next
day with decision. So that is what he did he came home
and thought it over. He called her the next day and informed
her he was withdrawing.
:-( I feel as though I failed my son. I should have
done more I should have fought harder for him.
He is now in GED clsses and took the pretest the other
day and the teacher informed him he passed two parts
but has to work on grammar. She seems to think in maybe a
little over a month he can take his test.
I can only hope and pray once he get the GED that he signs
up for some college courses. I dont want him to give up just at
the GED....Its not enough anymore.
Im just sad I wont see him walking down the aisle in his
cap and gown :-(