tomorrow

Well tomorrow (friday) is visitation for baby Taylor.
And Saturday is funeral.

I am doing ok with all of it. As best to be expected. So is the rest of the family.
I have decided none of my children will attend the visitation or the funeral. I dont feel like
they should be put through that. If it were an adult I would let them but I dont think they should have to see a baby like that. My daughter is really upset with me that I wont allow them to go but i feel it is best that they do not attend.

I called my lung dr today about my shortness of breath not getting any better. The medicine he gave me isn't helping with the "attacks" that I have.....

I also go next week to see about getting the first impressions made for my top denture and partial bottom. I am super excited for that.

well....I am going to stop for tonight just wanted to update some.

One day at a time...........

numb

Just thought I would stop by for a minute I am super tired tonight.

I am ok .

services have been arranged and will be on Friday and Saturday.

This morning I woke up with a horrible cough. I hope I'm not coming down with something.

more soon when I get rested up.



One day at a time...................

R.I.P Taylor 10/18/07-02/25/08

Taylor earned her Angel Wings at 8:15 pm est

She went peacefully surrounded by her immediate family.

after a little rest......

Well I got about 4 hours sleep.

I am awaiting a call from my family. mary got another ride back to Indianapolis this afternoon. The dr came in I guess this morning and pending 2pm meeting this afternoon they were going to make decisions on what to do.

I just can't stop asking myself why? I know that when you are born you are put here for a reason. Everyone has a reason as to why they are here. I just can't keep from wondering why a child is put here to only have to suffer so much. I guess it is not meant for us to question that we are to take things as they come.

I am not the mother of that child but i am a mother. My heart aches for her mom. The pain she must be going through. The thoughts running through her mind. I just can't imagine. To lose a child must be awful. I know that just being relative is hard but the parent shew I just dont know.
When my youngest was a baby he was sick. we had some scary moments but there was never a time I was told there was no hope. I just cannot imagine what Courtney and Derek are feeling right now.

well more soon......

until then......

One day at a time.......right now......One minute at a time.........

Sad......

Well I dont know what to say except I am sad.

My cousins baby is not doing well at all. They done test on her and found she has a heart condition and also has RSV that has settled into her heart. When her heart stopped at the local hospital and they had to do CPR on her it was quite sometime before her lil brain received any oxygen. Thus leaving her brain with no amount of activity. Riley Hospital is an hour away from here so I drove my stepmom and my youngest sister to the hospital tonight. The chaplin from riley came in and asked if they would like to receive prayer with him. He said prayer and asked if they would like for him to say a prayer over baby taylor they declined but did ask for a pastor from a local church to come and (baptize)her. He made the Hour+ trip and baptized and read her the last rites. was the saddest thing I ever had to go through.
was right after that I decided I needed to head home.
I just ask myself why Taylor? She hasn't even had a chance to live....she is only 4 months old.
I am closing this with this .....If you have children...Hug and kiss them tell them how much you love them and protect them with everything you have because you never know when their time on earth is over........

If there has ever been a time I wanted to smoke tonight was the night. I made it through it though and kept telling myself no.

One day at a time...............................

Asking for prayers......

I wouldn't normally come here and say anything about prayer ....But....My cousin and his wife have a baby I dont think she is but maybe 3 months old. I can't remember what month she was born but.....anywho......she is very ill and had to be air lifted to Riley Childrens hospital in Indianapolis this evening and is on full life support.......we know she has pneumonia really bad but they have also discovered some swelling in her brain....if you are praying please add taylor to your prayer list she needs all the help from the good man upstairs that she can get.
thank you in advance and will post more here once I find out more information.

sick

I tell ya I can't ever just be healthy. Yesterday I was so sick.....I wont go into detail. lol

We have had some snow and Ice. Its just been crazy weather.

I dont really have much to say. I will post again soon.

One day at a time.........

This and that and puppies too!!!!

Well.....Yesterday Snickelfritz the daschund had her puppies. .She only had 2 and they are both little boys. They are doing well and so is Momma.....I thought for sure she would have at least 4 but there was only 2. I will post pictures very soon of them. I have them on my camera but am too lazy to get on the PC to download them. I try not to d/l too much on my beloved laptop :-)!!

My daughther has been sick all week with the flu. which I am kinda glad of she was able to keep an eye on the lil girl I babysit while I dealt with making sure the delivery of the puppies went ok.

We are getting some more snow and ice tonight. I am just about over winter. Although I do not look forward to summer at all. Our electric runs so high in the summer because of the air conditioning. I told terry we should just get a couple nice window a/c units and forget the whole central air. I dont think ours is energy saving it is just dumb. lol

No cravings as of lately. which makes me happy!!!!

well more soon......I'm tired

one day at a time...................

An epidemic.......

well here I am back in Blogger land.......I have started an epidemic......A quit smoking epidemic....hahaha
1. Myself I quit with the help of chantix. Went great with few bumps in the road.
2. Candiss my friend and roomie she quit with the use of one month of chantix. One month and she is done. She doesn't crave often at all. over 2 months smoke free.
3. Kermit the rent a center guy he quit by getting hypnotised. he is 1 1/2 weeks smoke free. I talked with him yesterday and he said he doesn't have any cravings. i am really proud of him.....
now I just wonder who will follow in my footsteps.

yesterday I went to the dr and was in shock when they weighed me. I weighed 5 more pound then Idid 3 weeks ago. He also checked my paper where I had wrote all my blood sugars and he wasn't happy. he told me that when I go back in 3 weeks if there is a weight gain and/or no change in my blood sugars that I am going on medicine. I almost cried. I dont want to take any more medicines. I already take enough.

I called disabilty officethe other day and requested to appeal the desicion theymade. So they sent the paperwork for me to fill out and I had to resend it lets keep the fingers crossed that I can get it now. If not I have the attorney ready to go. I called and got a consult after the first denial and he said he would take my case. he is the type that just dont take cases.He takes the ones he knows he can win. And he does that because he doesn't get paid if he doesn't win so of course he wants to take the cases he knows he can win.

well I need to close out for now the kids are starving or so they think they are. more soon

One day at a time...........

Another snow day

Well here I am wishing the kids had school tomorrow but they dont. They have already called off school because of the ice n snow. I really enjoy the kids being in school.
I been extra short of breath today I dont know why but i have.
Everything else is going good.

I havent had any cravings for some poison as of the last few days. thank goodness.

well more soon


one day at a time..........................

stupid blogger.....

For some reason it messed up on my last post......and it was supposed to say ackkkk not ack at whatever.....anyway.....my niece poor girl. she is due in about 7 weeks. And she lives in Ohio but came home last week to spend time at her moms she was kinda homesick we thought anyway......she has been in the hospital all weekend. Shes a sick girl. She may get to go home early in the week. but we had her baby shower in the hospital. They have a conference room in the ob area. Thank goodness her step mom is cheif of staff. Anyway... The shower was great even though we were cramped in a littlier room then we orginally would have had. She got a ton of great stuff. I cant wait for her to have the baby. they went ahead and gave her a shot to strengthen the babys lungs in case. But the dr thinks all will be ok once they get momma better. But she is going to come home and have the baby. That dr in ohio isn't worth losin the baby over. He keeps telling her she has a virus. Anyway......we all look forward to seeing baby Colin.

Well enough now.....More soon

One day at a time.....

ackat I

Well I thought I was being smart so I changed my page and now I lost all the extra links to others blogs. I should have left well enough alone.
Anywho.......darn it.....Now its too late for me to figure out my mess. I will have to figure it out tomorrow.
Just a quick update.....Still smoke free of course. I didn't get to the dr the other day so I go on Tuesday. I have been extremely short of breath here the last few days. I also woke this morning and had indigestion something horrible. I was choking when I woke. Scary thing . guess my protonix isn't working so well. The singulair isn't doing what Dr warden wanted it to do either.
My niece had her baby shower todayy.

to crave or not to crave that is what my brain says....

Well today has been a trying day. One minute my brain says ahh a cig would be nice then the next it says are you nuts....have you lost your flippin mind. I am glad that it is time for bed. i haven't had a day like this in forever.
Now I know that if I even tried to smoke I would choke to death. My breathing has been horrible. I am short of breath so much here lately.
I dont want to smoke but my brain likes to play tricks. Stupid stuff.
Tomorrow I go to the dr. I am going to talk to him about the shortness of breath it is sometimes too much for me to handle. I just feel like I am turning blue.
I called earlier in the week to see about the dentures I have to go up and they have to get insurance approval and then I can get them. But will be about another month. I will be happy when I can get them though.

well I am going to bed......

More soon

One day at a time.................

yipppppppppppppppeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Well ......First off my dentist appointment went well ......Instead of coming home with NO teeth I came home with 7 teeth. He only needed to pull 2 on the bottom. So I will have a full denture on top and partials on the bottom!! Really made me happy that I can keep some of my teeth. its a dignity thing!!!! So they cleaned the few remaining teeth I have and got them all Shiny!!!! And instead of stitches or anything I left being pleased!!!!

Maggie I know you read my post I wanted to tell you......I so thought of you tonight. I was shopping walmart and I went to the lawn and garden section and I found the cutest flower pot..........I just know you would love one and if I had my camera I would have taken some pictures right there in walmart......The Flower pot was a Coffee Cup and it had a "saucer" on the bottom. Was Adorable I tell ya I just loved it. I may actually go back and get me one just as a converstion piece for my porch. I love sitting on the porch in the summer and am sure I will be out there a lot this year. I was like awww Maggie would love it.....My daughter was like who is maggie mom so I had to explain....Hehee

As far as Our nasty winter weather well It basically passed us up. We got a few flurries and ha some ice but that was it. I was really Disappointed I wanted a good snow this time.

well it is late and this ole girl is getting mighty sleepy.....Just wanted to post my good news about my teeth.

One day at a time....................

I'm alive

Shame on me not coming in and posting.
I am ok just been really busy. Wanting to get a lot done before tomorrow when all my teeth are gone and I dont want to go out much until I get dentures. I just dont think I will like not having any teeth.
I still haven't heard from the dietician at the hospital to go in for my diabetic classes. I have been taking my blood sugar daily and it has its moments when it is up......tonight it was up to 161 before I ate dinner......so of course I wasn't none to happy when earlier today it was only93 I just have to watch what I eat. I got me a lot of sugar free and low fat foods at the store today.
We are getting hammered with a snow storm right now it just started about 2 hours ago. I am anxious to see what it is like in the morning.
I dont think I have been here since my friend that is living here got her uncle Sam money and went and bought us both a laptop. Of course mine isn't as nice as hers but.......it is still a nice one. So now when I have those I dont feel like getting out of bed days I can still be online and be a happy camper.
Hubby bought me a nintendo ds also so i'm good to go.
well I will post more soon.......
Must go to bed for now


One day at a time........